Can you see?

Underneath a guise of calm serenity
I can feel boiling
I can feel heat
I can feel frustrations I can't dismiss

Underneath a guise of peace and quiet
I can hear static
I can hear lonliness
I can hear worlds shattering

Underneath a guise of organization
I can see chaos
I can see bitterness
I can see us losing this

Underneath it all
I know this
Is the end of a very
Beautiful thing

Thoughts of White

Search for me beyond the fog of my mind
Trying so desperately to keep you
From finding me
Alone

Surrounded by water
Breathing it in
But it does not drown me
Like the ocean that
I cannot find

Search for me beyond the shore of my mind
Trying to elude from the fact that
Finding me is so
Arduous

Surrounded by shadows
Cast from tall lies
But they do not cover me
Like the night
From the truth

Search for me beyond the home of my mind
Trying so hard to keep you out
From finding a truth
I can't admit to myself

Surrounded by light
That shines deep into the unwanted
Thoughts that seem to wander
Like the sounds
Of me surrendering 

Some Sense Since...

Senseless sensibility

And I'm hoping for

More than this

Reality seems to bear

A constant ache

A constant stare

Down into the depths

Of our truest despairs

Reflections of glowing

Gleaming falsehood

Gory perfection

Wrapped in packages

Of lost and found

Senseless sensibility

And I'm hoping for

Sheer emptiness

Helpful voices try to

Draw finer lines

Distinct human lives

Into what they once were

Of past lives we forgot

Hang on to every

Last word you hear

Long before you sell

All that makes sense

Of this troubling sensibility