Recharge
My heart
It's deflating
These days
Have been
Much more prickly
Than the last

Recharge
My soul
It's lost
All it's inflated
Hope and momentum
Now hiding somewhere

Recharge
My mind
It's lost it's spark
Losing spark power
And tying my tongue up

Recharge
My life
Before
It flickers out

Sharp
Harsh
Tones
That have been
Filling my head
Trickling down
Now
Into the rest of me
Making movements
Around important organs
Taking hostage
The pink flesh
And turning it into
Scar tissue

Sharp
Harsh
Noises
That are now
Filling my mind
Ripping into
Everything
That lays so soundly
Peacefully perfect
Without them since they left
Screaming at them
That they
May never rest
Again

Sharp
Harsh
Words
I keep telling
Myself
And every method
To erase them
Has vanished somehow
And I am sitting
Here now wishing
Sharp
Harsh
Things
Would really happen
Now

I wish I knew that you'd
Be running out on me
The path you set
For dice to tumble down
Doesn't include
Another pair

Laying in this ditch
Telling myself to get up
Run fast
Run far

I wish I knew that you'd
Be everything I wanted
I could have put you
On a shelf with the rest
Because everything looks
Better from afar

Laying in this ditch
Telling you to go on
Have fun
Live long

I wish I could let you
Love me
Even with you not
Saying the words aloud
I know you do
And most of the time
I don't want you to

Shhhh
My mind is running
Itself into the ground
And my morality
Cannot live up
To the image
I drew of myself
So long ago

Shhhh
My mistakes are conversing
Themselves against me
And my ego
Cannot fend for itself
To the rumors
That circle my ears
As I lay to sleep

Shhhh
My heart is heavy
Dumping out worries
And my spirit
Cannot let go
Of the things
I have done
So long ago

Shhhh
My grave awaits