My time is waiting
On a suspended
Call
That was promised
Under drunken
Pretenses
I knew
The lies
Before they
Were even spoken

Now it's late
And you just
Fake all the
Bull shit you
Said cause
Now it's off
Your chest
Got to rest
'Cause the
The suns
Coming up

But I live in
Disbelief
No matter
What you
Say to me
I won't allow
Anything to get
Pass the
My own
Reality

My time is wasted
On those ill thought out
Melodies you sang
To me
When the sun was
Barely rising
So save yourself
Some rest
It was your own
Life test

Shucks
I've turned
Out all wrong
Haven't I?

You did your
Best
But it wasn't
Like you
Wished

I have a
Mouth
I use when
I see fit

And as you
Get older
You see me
In a different
Light

Maybe it's
Friendship
You seek
From me
But you don't
Speak

I have
Feelings
I express
When I wish

You mustn't
Fear the
Grown
Can take care
Of their own

You've lead
All you can
Don't misunderstand
Or feel left out
Because you never
Wanted to hear the
Truth from the
Start

DNA doesn't
Mean we
Must go
On as we
Are so happy

Plastered
Smiles
As we look
Away from
The reflections
That shine
So bright
You wear
Shades

We may share
Similar bodies
Types
But we
Speak so
Differently
From one mouth
Must have
Been distorated
In the womb

Estatic laughter
We call real
Family pictures
Line the broken
Walls with holes
The size of fists

And I know you
Won't understand
Things will remain
As they are
Because you
Never hear
Your own child

So untrusting
What makes
Me want to
Stay away
From the
Living

People
And people
Are nothing
More than
Me
Humans with
Hearts
Lungs
And tounges
That are
Free

So why do
I feel so
Caged
Chained to
Endless thoughts
That question
Everyone who
Wants a piece
Of me

I cannot trust
You
Her
And him
When you all
Run the same

With hearts
That eat others
Lungs that take
In someone
Else and out
Comes stale air
Tounges that lash
Out and cut like
Knives

So untrusting
What makes
Me want to
Stay away
From the
Living

You say you're different
Try to stand out
Make efforts
To be outside the
Norm
But you're one
Of them
A cow in the hurd
Bumping into
Stupid ideas

There is a difference
An exploration
That you don't attempt
You're ordinary
Plain and
Unextrodinary
So please
Just eat the
Pasture you
Piss in

Besides the insides
That pound and beat
From all disappering
Things that float
On endlessly
In outer spaces
I can't seem to
Understand
There is a tiny
Part that
Keeps it in

Besides the storms
That crash and smash
Into all existing
Things that melt
Away seemlessly
In darkend skies
I can't seem to
Believe
There is a way
Through this
Natural mess

Besides the persons
That come and go
Into all reality
Things that break
So easily
In my truths
I can't seem to
Know
Them when they
Arrive and leave
Me behind

Maker's marks
Are threaded
Through all
Thoughts
Lapping in
My mind

Underneath
Over top
Inside
Outside

Shaper's sharps
Are pierceing
Through all
Thoughts
Glued in
My mind

Cutting
Cursing
Around
Sideways

Builder's bonds
Are cemented
To all
Thoughts
Blown up in
My mind

Feeling
Falling
Breaking
Bricks of mine

A phone call
Undressed
And unslept
Unkept
In holes and
Hordes of her
Own

A day night
Twilighted
And swept
In lands and
Minds of her
Accord

A bit sight
Sounded
And shut in
From steps and
Seats of her
Thoughts

A wasteful wish
Whispered
And let go
For a simple and
Kind friend of
Hers

I'm fearing
Fear
Finding this
Hard and unknown
Passage closed
Off

I'm letting
Let
Deciding whether
To come or go
Into a knowing
Known

I'm being
Being
That is
Human and faulty
How about for
These

I'm losing
Lost
You can't win
Everything and me
So please
Let be

There is a madness
Beneath
That rips and tears
All of these
Sane thoughts
From this mind
This head of mine
And then comes
Endless sleep

But where and how
To make this real
Make to make
What is made to be
I cannot believe
How days will be

There is an insanity
Some where
I cannot hide from
Traveling in and out
Of sanity with the
Lights on
Where did all my time go
With you or
Out the window?

But when and who
To see this through
See to see
What is seen to be
I cannot know
How these things go

There is crazyiness
Inside
Desperate to bare all
Secrets and spites
That I hold
No matter the years
Passing by
I find emptiness
In fullness they
Fool themselves with

But what and why
To believe what they
Feed to feed
The hungry and sane
I cannot want
Any of these

My sadness
Fades
Every time
You make me
Mad
Mad
So mad
And you don't
Try to
Reverse
Anything
You've done
Being ignored
Doesn't help
At all

My sadness
Fades
Every time
You pretend
I'm not here
I'm not here
I'm not here
And you try to
Act like a dick
I'm sick of it

You are a dick
Why did it take
Me so long
To know it

I'm here
I didn't
Disappear
And yet
You still
See nothing
I make so
Many efforts
For you to
Believe in me

I'm here
I didn't
Leave
And yet
You still
Don't know me
I scream so
Much just
For you to
Hear me

I'm here
I didn't
Do what I
Should have
Done a long
Time ago
Let you go

Scream
And then maybe
There will be something
Something to appear
Something to be
There
And nothing more

Scream
And then maybe
There will be someone
Someone to appear
Someone to be
There
And nothing more

Scream
And then maybe
There will be nothing
Nothing to appear
Nothing to be
There
And something more

I can play
Ignore him
Too

I can play
Forget him
Too

I can play
Gone missing
Too

I can play
Lost message
Too

I can play
Invisible
Too

I can play
Just don't
Call peace

I just can't simply
Understand
And I may have
Been a little
Too much at hand
But I don't
Believe that was
Reason to forget
A friend
And if you were
Just using me
Then why stop
So suddenly?

I can know
So many things
But you keep me
Spinning no matter
The record playing
And I believe
In fate and destiny
You fit in somewhere
Somewhere
Someone
You mean something
To me
So why can't
You just let it
Be?

Broken bridges
I'd rather burn
If I had the guts
To tell you straight
Then simply go
My way

Broken land lines
I'd rather burn
If I had the time
To explain everything
Then never see
You again

Broken hearts
I'd rather burn
If had the power
To make you feel
Then I'd break your
Heart too

Situate the steam
Into my face
Cause you might
As well burn me
And create a
Get away at
The same time

Situate the signs
Into on big no
Cause you might
As well keep me
Away from you
At all costs

Situate the friendship
Into neutral
Cause you're just
Rolling away from me
And we finally put
A stamp on this end

Suiting the needs
Of something
Bigger than me
My mouth can't reach
The crystalized
Drinks
You pour for me

Computing the needs
Of him in bed
Stronger than me
My arms can't grab
The wants
You give to me

Spreading the needs
Of me in this world
More important than me
My head can't comprehend
The demands
You whisper in me

So long
Hello
Goodbye
To you
I was never
Enough
Not entertaing
Lacking in sparks
Lacking in passion
Hope my face
Didn't make you sick
Maybe if you knew
More I'd be a little
Less boring

So long
Goodbye
Hello
I was never
Surprising
Interesting
Intriguing
I wasn't pretending
You weren't kidding
There was chemistry
There were intentions
Hard and ready
But we blast right
Past them

So long
Goodbye
Goodbye
I'm not about to
Cry about
The sun setting
On this story
In the future
Please keep in mind
I was more than you
Could handle

What to say
When the day's
Just a miss
From ordinary
And plain

How's your
Dog?
How are you
Now?

What to say
When the plans
Gone aray
From a trip
And spin

How's your
Dad?
How are you
Now?

What to say
When the car
Door sticks
From a jam
And climbing

How's your
Day?
How are you
Now?

The touch
The feel
Of your hands
Feels old
Lost memories
And stale words
We said
We sent

The jokes
The laughter
We share
Isn't the same
There's no
Mystery to
Us anymore

The looks
The eyes
Aren't sparkling
With curiosity
Maybe we knew
We'd always be
Friends

But I'd be lying
If I said I wasn't
Just a tad sad
That our chemistry
Was lost in such
A horrible way
My friend

My indiscreation
Is with the
Possible answers
Possible fables

My dislike
Is with the
Possible truths
Possible lies

My insight
Is with the
Possible words
Possible blanks

My distraught
Is with the
Possible love
Possible hate

My own
Is with the
Possible me
Impossible

Suddenly I have to
Know the answers
Of what I am
What I was

Truly frightening
To acknowledge
Of what I am
What I was

I'm sitting here
Letting words
Say what I am
What I was

I'm wishing for more
In lines that
Are what I am
What I was

Maybe you'll understand
By holding out hands
To show what I am
What I was

I be
I am
What I was
What I did

The place of
A face
And known facts
Play on personality
That was
That is

I did
I was
What I am
What I be

The unknown parts
Of me
Suddenly piece together
That was
That is

I was
I did
What I be
What I am

To know somthing
Else
Would be unfathomed
That was
That is

I am
I be
What I did
What I was

Cheap thrills
Let's keep
Ensuing
The sins
That make
Us feel alive

Broken and
Trying to find
Solitude in
A mixed up
World with
Words being
Mispelt

Teenage girls
Hoping he'll
Stay now that
They made one
And teenage boys
Hoping she aborts

Cheap thrills
We can always
Get what we
Want in seconds
Time

He's hopeing for
Her skirt to rip
And she's hoping
He remembers her
Name
Why is it so hard
To find a lover
Without the love

Wars and peace
Fighting for
More in its place
Everyones opinion
Is wrong
So what's the answer
Then?

Cheap thirlls
Total lost
Is total found
Hanging from
Doorways
And their empty
Lives
Who's alive?