Mmmmm I feel
So good
I'm not smiling
But everything
Feels good
I don't know how
To explain it
But it just does
Maybe I'm growing
Up and I don't even
Realize it
Hahaha
Wow it feels good
Just to be alive

Time and rhythms
Keep tapping
On my mind
Wake up
Wake up
Wake up
Look up
Look up
Look up
Stop dreaming
Stop dreaming
Stop dreaming
You're losing
You're losing
You're losing
Take this advice
And shut up
For once
Selfish child
Brat tendencies
Time and rhythms
From the past
Remind me
It's gone
It's gone
It's gone
Move on
Move on
Move on
It's old
It's old
It's old
Don't dwell
Don't dwell
Don't dwell
Take this advice
For you grow
Older with every
Minute that passes
Time and rhythms
Keep playing this
Song all day long
Running me down
Breaking me down
But I keep singing
To time and rhythms

Beat beat
This heart
Flees along
The water
Frozen
From the sky
Above
What will it do
Where will it go
Hide hide
This heart
Tucks underneath
Muscles and bones
Waiting for it to be
Safe again
Jump jump
Into the dark
And let it flow
As it floats
To its own beat

I'm going to be ok
But I still feel like
It's not over
Friends
Or something
More
Time can only
Tell
I'm glad nothing
Got fucked
Up cause that
Would have truly
Broken my heart

I hate not having a car
I hate this distance
I hate this
I hate that we can't
Meet
I hate that this is
All playing out
Through technology
I hate that I can't
See your face
I hate that I
Still don't know you
And you still don't
Know

Underneath
Masks painted
On and covering
Up
There’s a girl
Afraid to let
It be seen
True identity
Doesn’t seem
To exist anymore
Where anyone can
Be anyone beside
Themselves

Pure attraction
Has got me playing
With how far I’ll go
I’m not sure if I
Can stop myself
With you
Sexual frustration is
Some scary shit
Fatal attraction
I think I just might
Give in

In camera’s lens
We become
Beauties
Or is it just
Sex puppies
For his attention
Just give him a call
As long as he’s got
A body shot
He’ll ring you back
Want to feel loved
Take off your bra
Want to feel pretty
Take off your knickers
Print
Send
And you’ll have a guy
In no time

I want to scream
I’m becoming something
I’m not
My feelings feel like
Robotic mechanics
Designed to keep me
In line
And so I walk in straight
Lines
I’ve given in to the media
And all its temptations
Look this way
Think less
Sex more
I want to scream
And see who will
Come
The cops or my boy
When will my cash
Turn into happiness
When will my love
Be with me
Instead of just inside me
I want to scream
But they seem like
Small whispers
Compared to the rest
Of the world
And so I’ll bake a cake
Hoping that pretending
There’s a smile on
My face will fix
Everything

Sleeping way too much
Just so I don’t have to
Think
Dreams don’t come
To me in my sleep
I love that
I never have to interpret
Anything
Sleeping I feel nothing
But the pillow
Under me
Blankets under and on top
Of me
I reach out just to pull
Them in a bit closer
Sleeping just so my heart
Can beat a bit slower
My brain recharging
Sleeping
I wish I could sleep all
The time
And miss all this shit

I can see through
Excuses
I can see through
Lies
I can see through
Facades
I can see through
Your eyes
I can see through
Words
I can see through
Jokes
I can see through
You
I can see through
Me
I can see through
Walls

What I said was
True
None of it was
Shit
I was thinking
Of you
I was trying to
Stop
But I couldn’t
And
Now I want to
Stop
Cause I see you
Aren’t
Worth it
Cause it’s just not
Working out
And I’m almost
Gone
What I said was
True
It’s been up to
You
Let me just pass
By
I know you’ll let
Me
Slip right out of
Your hands
So I’m gone
Bye

A keyboard
Made to help
Play music
From the heart
A keyboard
Made to help
The soul
Say things
It can’t speak
A keyboard
Made to help
The mind
Send its thoughts
Now all we need
Is a keyboard
For the eyes
To send messages
Straight from
Sight

Tears won’t
Help mend
Anything
That we’ve
Said
So why don’t
You stop
Shedding a
Mini sea
And try looking
For land

I’m no fool
I know not to
Be waiting
On you
Don’t worry
I won’t make
That mistake
Again
I’m going to
Be realistic

Well well
Feels like
A weight
Has been
Lifted off
My chest
I feel like
I can breath
Again

I’m not
So afraid
Anymore
Even though
It was over
The words
Of a phone’s
Keyboard
Couldn’t I believe
My own actions
With my eyes
But I’ve got the
Text to prove it
Lol and jk’s
All night long
I’m not
So afraid
But my hopes
Aren’t set
On phone
Conversations
Forever

I said it
I said it
Finally
I said it
And it
Wasn’t
As bad
As I
Thought
I would
Be
I’m glad
Because
If I hadn’t
I would
Have never
Know what
Could have
Happened

Chances aren’t
Drops off the
Edge
They’re leaps
Of fate that
Can carry you
Off to
Places you
Would have
Never imagined

I’m silly for believing
That magic
Happens without
Any sight and sound
Silent conversations
Can only be so much
But they cannot replace
Pulses of warmth
And glowing skin

I feel high
Higher now that
I’m starting to set
You free from me
I’ve been holding
On to the ground
For too long

My heart feels free
Free from what
I’ve been holding
On to for too long
I don’t care how
This turns out anymore
I just needed to say it
I need to set the truth
Free

Crazy that I’ve been
Hiding this for so long
I haven’t seen you
In a while
But I can’t lie to myself
Anymore
So if what I said
Scares you just a bit
Don’t be afraid to tell me so
I’m stronger than you may think

Conversations
That I have
Been running
Through my
Head over
And over again
It’s hard to sort
Out what I should
Say and what I want
To say

Laying in my bed
I wish you were
Here to hold me
Instead of this
Stale air
Why did I have
To fall for you
My empty bed
To catch me
Instead of you
Sheets wrapped
Around me
Instead of your
Warm arms
I just knew
I was dreaming
When I saw you
But that dream
Would never
Come true

You came in
You broke
Me again
My walls
Were never
Strong enough
For you
I put complete
Trust in you
When I knew
You wouldn’t
Come through
In the way
I wanted
You to
I broke my own
Heart by lettingYou come inside

Word for word
I hold my tongue
What I’ve been
Trying to say
Has gotten stuck
Underneath my
Rib cage
My heart
Pounding on it
Tapping on it
As my blood
Rushes around
It
I’m afraid if
I let this out
My body
Will retaliate
Word for word
I’ll just write it
Down

Just a name
So she can
Be real to me
So I know
Who you
Want to be
With
And when
She’s with
You I hope
She treats you
Well
Because you
Deserve the best
You deserve it all

Hurts
It hurts
Hearts
Hurt

I need to speak
Clear my head
But nothing’s
Coming out
Gasps of old
Breath linger
In my throat
Held still by
Frozen muscles
Shocked into
Their current
Form
I need to clear
The past and see
A clean new
Future where my
Thoughts are
Free from This confinement

Heart beats
To this heat
I wish I could
Slow it down
Racing
And bumping
Into the rhythms
Of the souls
Sounds
Yearning to
Break free
From confining
Skin easily
Broken with
Knives
Let it out
Let it out
The music
Pushing against
Me
To come out

Swimming
I’m drowning
In what makes
Me human
Bobbing up
And down
Under blankets
Of old feelings
Trying to breath
In new ones
But my lungs
Fill with past
Regrets
Words to oldTo remember

They say
You calling
Means all
The best
For me
That you
Got to
Like me
To want
To talk
To me
Now I
Just want
To know
Why
Did you
Call if you
Had no intention
Of calling again
Then why did
You
No one made
You dial
My number
You must have
Wanted to hear
My voice
Are you
Scared of
Hurting my
Feelings or
Something
Please don’t
Try to spare
Me
I’m a big girl
And I know
How to take
Care of myself
I just want
You to stop calling
Don’t ever call
Again

I knew the rules
I knew the game
I still played
I still believed
I had I chance
At winning
I had everything
In but I couldn’t
Even see that
You had put barely
In anything
I got caught up
In the rush
Of the high
Stakes
The prize
At the end
That wasn’t
Mine to win