I wish I knew that you'd
Be running out on me
The path you set
For dice to tumble down
Doesn't include
Another pair

Laying in this ditch
Telling myself to get up
Run fast
Run far

I wish I knew that you'd
Be everything I wanted
I could have put you
On a shelf with the rest
Because everything looks
Better from afar

Laying in this ditch
Telling you to go on
Have fun
Live long

I wish I could let you
Love me
Even with you not
Saying the words aloud
I know you do
And most of the time
I don't want you to

Shhhh
My mind is running
Itself into the ground
And my morality
Cannot live up
To the image
I drew of myself
So long ago

Shhhh
My mistakes are conversing
Themselves against me
And my ego
Cannot fend for itself
To the rumors
That circle my ears
As I lay to sleep

Shhhh
My heart is heavy
Dumping out worries
And my spirit
Cannot let go
Of the things
I have done
So long ago

Shhhh
My grave awaits