My liking for weird things
Can get out of hand
But I want someone who understands
Me just the way I am
And love me no other way

Or maybe it is all my in my head
And that is why I can't go to bed
And when I do you're all I see
In my dreams
So how can I tell it's real?
maybe a clue
Or the truth.

Is it safe to say
You like me too
Or am I just dreaming
Up in my head?
If I'm not
Then please
Carry me away
Tell me your secrets
And I'll tell you mine
Is it safe to say
I want you to be mine?

And suddenly your face fades into another
I am not hung up on a dream
So long I've waited for another
To take your faded place
And I hope that I never fade from
Your memory

One snowflake
Two snowflake
Who can study with all these snowflakes
All I want to do is run around
Like I am five again
And let them fall
On my nose and eyelashes
One snowflake
Two snowflake
Won't you come outside
And play with me?

These thoughts in my head
They just started up
And where they came from
I have not a clue
But dreaming them up
Isn't half bad
And when you are in them
I never want to leave my bed

What can I say
I am human
And everything
I do stays inside me
So it is perfectly safe to say
That I know right from wrong
But I fall to such things that
Can pull you apart
And your one of them

So what have I learned
Not a thing
What do I think
Not a single thing
When I am feed so many things
How can I
Look in my eyes
And see all of the input
So how much output to I have
None
So much is given
And so little is taken from it

What I want the most
I don't know
And what I wish for
Doesn't exist
So is it safe to say
I feel like nothing is coming
Fast?

And suddenly I don't realize that I miss much
And when I return it feels like deja vu
If only I could remember this place
It seems so far and distant from my memory
I feel like I am forgetting a piece of me
That me moving on and learning new things
Hinders my experinces from this distant land
If only I could revisit whenever I felt lost

All I want is to scream
Maybe make a hole in the wall
And when it rains
I suddenly I calm down
Oh if this state weren't so dry
I would live a life
That was rinsed off by the storms
washing away my frustrations
and my obessions
If only I could call on the rain
whenever I wanted
At my convience

My brain feels fired
Stuck it in the microwave
Along with all my books
To bake the info into my cranium
Now I am having a serious overload
And if my head doesn't explode soon
I think I will crack it open myself
Maybe put some of the extra info
On a flash drive
I just hope my brain doesn't crash

Purple night
Oh I wish you would come into my room
Sweep my walls with your ever glowing light
Shine on my face
Make me exotic
Paint on my skin
Turn the whole sky your shade
Make it last all night
Purple night
Please never leave my sight

Swiftly
Slowly
Time ticks by
I am
Waiting
Hoping
For you to
Passy by
Feeling
So weak
Please don't speak
I think I'll
Melt at your feet
So cliche
But that's how
I feel
As I listen to
Time ticking
Slowly
Swiftly
Passing by

Right in front of me
stands the beauty
in the every day light
I stand there
as time goes by
as people pass by
They don't notice me
They don't notice it
Right infront of their eyes
Standing right infront of them

So I am suppose to read minds
Your's is telling me that
You can't stand me
But there is no logical reason for hating me
Benifit of the doubt doesn't work here
I gave you chance
Did all I could to make us
Feel at home
But now I see those dirty looks
and snarky remarks
And I just have to wonder
Was I suppose to see this coming

And everything about you
makes me go insane
And everytime I see you
I just want you to take me away
But my dreams will never come true
because you don't know
the way I feel about you
And I think you don't feel the same way
Your eyes don't see me that way
But I think of love
I see you
To bad my dream
is a nightmare too

I fall
And I shouldn't
I become numb
And I can't help it
I feel like I'm not here
Thinking is to much
But I do it
And bad things come
and I fall

Dried up thoughts
I linger for words
That were blown away
And they never come back
The air is still
and stale
Time passes and I wait
Buildings crumble
And I don't move
Lost thoughts
Gone now and forever

Heavy
And Hard
Weight
I can't carry
Heavy soul
filled with thoughts
I circle daily
My eyes burn
But no tears come
to relieve
My mind
dying
My hope
crushing
And I feel
Numb
Day in
Day out
Heavy Thoughts

It is still there
Lingering
Pulling on my heart strings
My mind becomes dizzy
If I imagine you near me
I tingle all over
I just want you to hold me
Just one last time

Lifting from inside
I feel my heart rise
I know my own strength
So I let it lift me
From above it rains
And I know it's meant
To hold my head high
In the most weary times
It washes away my fears
As I come to terms
With the new me

In my bed
I lay awake
Hoping my
Eyes will go
To bed
My heart is
Aching
My head is
Pounding
I need to
Rest
I lay awake
In my bed

Heart

This heavy heart
I carry with me
It weighs me down
And I am hurting
I cannot seem
To find peace
I keep on feeling
Like there is no room
For my heart
Inside my small chest
I want to be where
I feel at home
I need to leave
Before things
Go wrong

Where I am at

My face holds it together with a smile
I know my choice and feel the fire
That comes to my eyes
I hope that this won't end badly
I've dreamt about it
Talked about it
Thought I coluld live my fantasy
But know I am here and I can't breath
I want familiarity
I want to feel at ease
My head keeps telling me to stay
But my heart is telling me to leave