It's all here
In my head
Trapped
Trying to
Pry beyond
The walls
Of my mind
Yelling
Screaming
It's hard
For me
To let it
Flow pass
My teeth
They clench
Tightly
My tounge
Blocking
Creating a
Massive wave
Of pink
My words
Caught up
In a storm
In my mouth
My face trying
To hide my
Attempts at
Being truthful
When it comes
To matters of
The heart
I just can't
Seem to say
What I want

I'm afraid
I'm tired
I'm bored
I'm impatient
I'm loose
I'm tight
I'm lost
I'm found
I'm lost
I'm tricked
I'm tricking
I'm tripping
I'm falling
I'm standing
I'm losing
I'm bound
I'm free
I'm sick
I'm well
I'm walking
I'm still
I'm trying
I'm lazy
I'm looking
I'm blind
I'm sure
I'm doubtful
I'm a walking
Contradiction
I'm a walking
Puzzle
I'm broken
I'm fixed
I'm me
But who
Am I?

Pride it will
Eat you up
It will leave
You lonely
Pride it will
Tear you
Apart as you
Watch others
Pass by
Happy and
Smiling
Pride it will
Be better
For me
If I have none
Because 19
Years has
Shown
Its destruction

I hear
Nothing
I feel
Everything
So much
I can't
Tell it
All apart
Where am
I going
Where did
You go
Why did
God give
Me this
Curse of
Dreaming
Because none
Of it
Ever comes
True
And when
I try
To make
Them come
True
They always
Seem to
Slip away

Silent words
Whispered
Text
Back and forth
Got the guts
To tell
You in person
How you make
My heart
Stutter
But when will
You appear
So I can show
You I'm not
As shy as
You imagine
Soundless
Conversations
And two phone
Calls where
Nothing was the
Topic of our minds
So much more to
Say
To see
But I can't paint
A picture through
The phone
Better to come to
Me and just see
Maybe I'm being
A little pushy
But I've never taken
A chance
A stance
And I've never
Wanted anything
More than
To hear you voice
Mingle with mine
Until we are silent
For being far to
Busy with something
Else

It flows like
Words
Said
Hours ago
Remebering
Listening
Hearing
Maybe
Comprehending
But not
Fully getting
The picture
A smudged attempt
At piecing
Together small
Clues
Like those bread
Crumbs Hanzel
Couldn't find
In the dark
A flow
Of mishap
Taken for granted
Cause it was
In those mistakes
You learned
For another day
You'd find your
Rythm again
Flowing in
The wind

I love
A challenge
I think that's
Why I like you
So much
You're a puzzle
I haven't solved
Yet
My mind
Is always racing
About you
And as long
As I'm not
Bored
I'll keep
You in my
Heart

You say
You're too
Much
For me
To handle
I tell you
I'm like no
Other girl
And our little
Merry-go
Round
Spins faster
Lifting us off
The ground
I told you
I always take
Too much
You asked
What makes me
So different
I guess
You'll just have
To come and see

Shit
Damn
I think
About you
When I should
Be doing
Other things
I wait for you
To call
I wait for you
But what am I
Doing?
I can do everything
On my own
I'm not a child
I'm a grown
And should know
Better
But you make
Me feel this
Way
I wish you would
Just carry me away

My impatient
Nerves get the
Better of me
I should slow down
Realize things take
Time
Just enough time
Cause if I let
You slip away
Again
I'll never forgive
Myself

I've got this
Tingle
In my stomach
I've got this
Smile
Spread across
My face
I've got this
Thought
That you like
Me
I like you too
I've got this
Nagging voice
Telling me it's
Not true
But I've got
This drive
To make you mine
No matter what
I have to do
Cause I've got
This feeling
It's meant to be
Me and you

I like you
Man
I like you
Boy
I like you
Guy
I like you
Male
I like you
Macho
I like you
Tough guy
I like you
Teddy bear
I like you
All of you
Please say
You like all
Of me too

Check me out
Check out myself
Check this song
Check this heart
Check that light
Check my bank account
Check my hair
Check my words
Check your phone
Check up on me
I'll check up on you

Tingle
Tangle
Tango
Tangerine
Tantalizing
Tasteful
Tease
Torture
Taunting
Terrified
Thoughtful
Thoughtless
Thoughts
Things
Thongs
Thick
Thin
Thread
Talking
Taking
Tempting
Tapping
Tipping
Too tough
Too tender
Twisted
Tathered
Topless
Tied together
Tight trousers
Ta da Ta da

I'm thinking
I'm crazy
I'm thinking
I'm in love
I'm thinking
I'm niave
I'm thinking
You like me
I'm thinking
This isn't real
I'm thinking
I need money
I'm thinking
I'll never be
Able to live
So I've got
To do it now
I'm thinking
I love my family
But they drive
Me insane
I'm thinking
Of you again
I'm thinking
I'll never find
A job
I'm thinking
About everything
I'm thinking
Of you and I can't
Stop
I can't stop
Thinking
It's all I do
When I get
Caught up in
You
I'm thinking
I think to much

Heated
Mind
Heated
Bed
Heated
Phone
Heated
Thoughts
Heated
About you
Heated
Sun
Heated
Pants
Damn heated
Underpants
Heated
Hotter
Hotter
Every second
Heated
Heated
I think
I'm done

What to
Do
I can't
Forget you
What to
Do
We aren't
On the same
Page
What to
Do
I'm falling
Hard
For someone
Who doesn't
Fall at all
If you are
Say something
Please say anything
So we aren't
Hurting anyone's
Hearts

I worry
I wonder
I stumble
I fall
Hard
Every time
What the
Hell can
I do
When I
Listen
I hear
I pick
Up the
Phone and
It's you
On the other
End
How could
I ever pretend
To not
Be in a
Mess with
You
The only problem
Is I don't
Think
No I know
You don't
Worry
Wonder
Stumble
And fall
Hard every
Time I call

Work
Work
I play
Play
Waiting
For party
Boy to
Come around
Work
Work
Money
Money
Selling my
Blood to
Get closer
To the ones
I love
Hahahaha
Work
Working
To get you
Near me
But you're
Debating
Fighting
Wondering
If I'm worth
The time
I'm working
Working hard
To let you
Know my
Hearts the best
And its all
For you
You've just got
To work a little
Work
Work
For what I'm
Gonna give out

The chance
I take
The leaps
I bounce
The lives
I meet
And touch
Somehow
The life
I lead
And how
To decide
Whats right
And wrong
The times
I live in
And being
Different
From them all
I'll never
Know until
I fly
But how I
Choose to
Make the
Jump
Is all my own
The heart
I listen to
Is never wrong
So I'm going
To jump

Smash Smash
Crush Crush
Bricks
From fallen
Walls
Smash Smash
All the
Red words
They spewed
Crush Crush
Tired looks
Tired lines
Smash Smash
Hateful thoughts
Burnt skin
Crush Crush
Old memories
Old faces
Smash Smash
Everything I
Thought
Crush Crush
Everything I
Believed
For so long
Smash Smash
The monster
Within
Crush Crush
And never
Look back
Smash Smash
Just Dust
In the past
Crush Crush

Its so wrong
Of me
To think of
You when
I should move
On
Steamy and
Dreamy I
Lay waiting
For you to
Call
Waiting for
You to care
And I know
I can't break
This spell
Alone

Hahahah
I don't want
You in my
Belly
Get in
My pants!

Words sound
The same
When they
Come out
Of my head
I read what
I write
And it all
Sounds dumb
In a funk
Without any
Spunk
I guess I should
Put down the pen
And pick up a sword

Stuck
Between
A rock
And you
Man you've
Got a strong
Hold
And I don't
Know what to
Do
It's so easy
To let you
Hold me up
I can pretend
That we are
Something more
When you talk
Sweet in my ear
But maybe
I'm imaging again
I'm known to do
That
But this rock is
Hard and rigid
And your soft
And familiar
How do I get
Out when I all
I want to do
Is let you hold
Me
That is if you
Ever wanted to

High
Hopes
Wish washy
Dreams
They floated
Right down
That river
I didn't cry
For you
And if this
Is all true
Then why
Can't I stop
Thinking of
You
Seeing you
Everywhere
I go
Hearing your
Name anywhere
I am
Let's just
Make it clear
That I still
Like you
But I'll
Just pretend
Like we
Aren't friends

What's that
Funny smell
In my water
Bottle?
What's the
Name of
That kid
I'd fallen
For?
What's for
Dinner
Tonight?
What's the
Name of
This song?
What's up
With him?
What's up
With me?
Why do
I have to
Pee every
10 minutes?
What's going
To keep
Me busy?
Why can't
I just let
Go and
Stop dreaming
Of you?
Hahah why
Can't I stop
Asking so
Many questions?
Why can't I
Just unwind
And live my
Life?
But seriously
What is that smell
In my water bottle?