Stanza after stanza
I say the same old
Thing

Line after line
I wish for somthing
New

Word after word
I look for insight
Into life

Syllable after syllable
I makes sounds that speak
To my sould

Letter after letter
I hope you see who
I am

I'm trying to
And I think I've
Finally got the
Hang of it
I've let you go

Thought I'd spend
The rest of my life
Waiting for you
Holding out for you
Now I know to let go

It was hard
Thought the rain
Would never stop
Falling
But then today
The ice started melting

I still feel it
Time from time
But that's just memories
That follow me
And forever I will
Hold them dear
My friend
My first

Well just let me
Know if so
I'll be waiting
Right here
For your smile
Again

Well let me
See your face
Heading toward mine
I ain't moving
Anytime soon

Well let it
Be so
How many times
I wished it play out
Like in the snow
Falling so softly

Well let this song
Sing you and me
To sleep
Hopefully through
This wall you
Can see
How badly I wish
For it to be this way
Forever more

Well let it
Just let it be

Maybe I'm crazy
Yes it's true
Let's not try
To pretend I'm not

Maybe I'm a fool
Yes it's true
I fell for you
Even when you said not to

Maybe I'm insane
Yes it's true
I chased you
When you didn't want me too

Maybe I'm oblivous
Yes it's true
I don't see
Everything they see in me

Maybe I'm seeing
Yes it's true
I'm seeing
Seeing for the first time

Chasing time
Was never enough
To get you to notice

Chasing nights
Was never going
To get you to see me

Chasing days
Was never going
To make a difference to you

Chasing songs
Was never going
To get you to listen

Chasing you
Was never going
To be worth everything
I deserve

So here I sit
Ice up past
My shoulders
Breath outside
Myself
Bubbles ready
To be filled with
Words needed
To be said

So here I wait
Sun beating on
My shoulders
Sweat of ghosts
Past
Tears not
Cried because
We don't have the
Guts to say good-bye

So here I leave
The leaves blow away
Past my shoulders
Words flowing quickly
Away
Now's the time
To let you go
I just wish you
Knew why

It all makes sense
The time you gave me
Your days were free
Because she broke your
Heart

It all makes sense
The times you called
You were wondering
If I'd open more than
One door

It all makes sense
The words you said
Coaxing me
Fooling me
I fell hard

It all makes sense
You didn't want to try
We promised
It wasn't a waste
But I was wrong

It all makes sense
Even after the fact
You had moved on
And I returned sore
Broke from sense
I should have had

So here here
Is where I hear
I'm lost
I'm found
And still the
World turns round
Walking up
Walking down
I hope it's better
Where ever I end up

But there there
Is there a sound
I'm confused
I'm clear
And still nothing
Works out
Waking up
Wake up
Is all I have to
Get me out of bed

And still still
I continue on
I'm there
I'm here
I'm no where
But today
Not tomorrow
Is when I fix
This hallow wall

Sweet Nothings

Sweet memories
Mixed with bitter truths
Your hands on me
Just like they should be
I picture so many things
But they all burn out
If only you could commit
If only I could see

Sweet breaths
Mixed with unsaid words
If they were meant
To be heard they'd be spoken
Your laying next to me
I won't keep you out
The closest anyones been
And still you won't come in

Sweet sighs
Mixed with unequal emotions
My heart beats silently
Your's thunders out
I won't say a word
I'll only kiss you now
And let you go

Sweet eyes...Sweet smile
Mixed with an unfinished goodbye
In all reality
I knew this was no fantasy
I'll take care
If you promise
Promise
To forget it all

If I had any words to say
I'd say them all
If I had any doubts
I'd have stayed at home
If I had any dreams
Well then you just crushed them all
If I had any hopes in you
I'd wish they were true
If I had any sense
I would have saved my heart
If I had any thoughts
I'd look back and erase them all
If I had guts
I'd tell you off
And walk away

And suddenly I'm in a black hole
Where your light is all
Fuck that time
And the day you called
Fuck that day
And the day you stalled
Fuck those words
And that day you didn't call
Fuck that I tried
And you didn't try at all
Fuck that I trusted
Even if it didn't seem like
It at the time
Fuck that I fucked you
You fucked me overall

It’s as if disappearing wouldn’t be such a bad thing…In the end I will be fine…I just have to live on and realize are the way they are…even the shitty ones…and maybe someday that will change. Some people are meant to stay in your life forever and some are only meant to make an appearance…I wish some of them would stay…I wish they wanted to stay…I wish they put more effort into something that could have been so easy…something so natural…at least to me. But this is life and I will have to accept it…I accept how you didn’t try to kiss me good-bye…How you didn’t say what this all meant…How you didn’t have the balls to say no when you knew how crazy I was for you…How you will never own up to what you really wanted…all you ever wanted. Good-bye…catch me if you can.