So bad
You're so
Bad
And I
I am
So good
So why
Do I fall
Into
Your darkness
Why do I not
See my light
Hurts you
So bad
So good
I just want
To feel so
Good in
Your bad

I'm sitting
Waiting
For your
Bus to
Come around
I'm looking
Out
For your
Smile to
Shine on me
I'm losing
Faith
In your
Friendship
You and I
Have
And sometimes
I just don't
Know what
I'm looking
At

Spining
Let us go
Faster
My hearts
Pumping
Your arms
Are steering
Let us go
Faster
Everything
Around me
Is twirling
Speeding
Up time
Let us go
Faster
The road
Is dark
The sky
Is bright
Let us go
Faster
That pole
Is big
Is close
Let us go
Faster
Don't stop
Now
Let us go
Faster

I hate
This feeling
You push
Against me
Like drugs
I need it
I need you
But you leave
Me empty
Hallow
And cleared
Out
Like the day
After Christmas
Sales
How you make me
Feel
Numb and
Hot
I don't
Want to need
You anymore
I don't
Want to have
This urge
To hear you
Feel you
Read you
Oh why
Can't I
Give you
UP!

Is it too much
To ask for?
For you to
Look at me
And see me
As someone
You'ld want
Next to you
When it is dark
For you to
Look at me
And see me
As someone
You could
Love
With your
Whole heart
If not
Then tell me
So

Fill me up
Oh sweet wind
Fill my lungs
With sinful
Air
How it gets
Me high
Higher than
When I let you
Touch me
How cold
The wind
Feels
Caressing me
Numbing me
Your warm hands
Feeling me
Heating me
Fire burns my
Skin
Why do you
Feel like I need
Your warmth
I want the wind
I want to be cold
Cause I never expect
Much from the wind
If I believe in you
You may just leave
Me cold
Again

Cause I'm
Fighting this
This feeling
Hard as it is
Cause I'm
Losing this
This want
Hard as it is
Cause I'm
Feeling this
This feeling
Hard as I don't
Want to

I can't see myself
Opening
Letting anyone
In
I'm scared
Too afraid
To let my
Walls tumble and fall
I know I shouldn't
Be so guarded
But I am
But thinking of you
Makes me believe
You can tear down
Anything
Even these old walls
I just hope you are
There to pick up the
Pieces

Monsoon
Comes again
Wiping winds
Pouring rain
Screaming thunder
Raging lightning
I bask
I love
When it takes
Over my body
Drowing me
Striking me
Yelling at me
Swallow me whole
I beg for nature
To eat me alive
In earths
Cool wet
And red mouth
Nothing can satisfy
Me more
Than monsoon
Except maybe
You

Tension rising
My heart is falling
For you
Summer is coming
And I am hoping
I will be with you
My mind is racing
I'm almost home
Coming home to
You

It is there
In plain sight
Right between
The eyes
It is there
In the corner
Right where
We left it
It is there
In my heart
Broken
But still
In use
It is there
In your mind
But you choose
To keep it inside

If it is true
Then let it
Ring loud
And clear
Across the
Sky so
That my
Heart may
Catch it
If it is true
Then let it
Find me
In this world

Lalalalala
I hear it in
My head
Lalalalala
I hear it in
My bed
Lalalalala
I hear it in
My dreams
Lalalalala
I hear you
And I wish you
Were with me

AghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhAGHHHHHHHHHHHAHGHHHHAHGHGHGHAHGHAGHAGHAGHGH!!!!
Too much?
Not enough?
What is up?
Why you playing?
Why you saying?
Things don't add up?
Why didn't it?
Too soon?
Too late?
Too far?
Too ahead?
All in the head?
All in reality?
AGHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHHAGHAGHGHGAHG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

It's a game
Back and forth
That we play
I want you
You just want
Some fun
What is there
For me at the
End of this bet
We hold high
Stakes
In a game
That never
Seems to end

It lays heavy
Across
So big
It beats
Slower
And slower
Everyday
I know I
Lay it down
As if there
Was no other
Way
But I am afraid
That this weight
Will disappear
I don't want
You to disappear

In my chest
I feel it
As I heave
As I breathe
In my mind
I feel it
As I think
As I dream
In my hands
I feel it
As I write
As I type
In my heart
I feel it
As it beats
As it pulses
For you

Words spilling
Out
Like guts
On a highway
Words flying
Out
Like spit
From your mouth
Words coming
Out
Like children
From school
Words speaking
Out
At everything
Around me

And it rings
Loudest
Words that
Fall like
Needles
So clear
Through thick
Air hovering
Over my head
And I want it
To be the
Truth

Like clothing
It falls
Softly to the ground
Slightly standing
On the day
It's absorbed
Words embeded
In wrinkles that
Are dark and
Hard to distingush
Like clothing
How it comes off
So easily
But so hard to choose
Anew

Soft and wet
Pink gum
Rolls around your
Mouth
Sugar coats
Your tounge
Delicious
And you always
Crave it
But how hard it was
Before
That gum ball so shiny
And new
Hard shell to break through
But with you jaws you
Broke right through
And now it is new
New on your tounge

Are we as
Hard as candy
Easy to break
Fun to have
Sharp on the corners
Are we as soft
As petals
Smooth to touch
Lovely to have
In different colors
Are we as strong
As we tell ourselves
As we tell others
Are we as weak
As we fear we are
As we hide from people
Am I just what I think
Am I just what I pretend
Am I?

Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
They come flooding
In
And I love everyone
Who sends me
Smiles
But oh how I wait
On your smile the
Most
Selfish of me
To want nothing else
But it's my birthday
And I will cry if I want to
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Doesn't sound as sweet
Until you say it

Hanging on to
Lots of words
Words that
Glisten in the sun
Hanging on to
What you say
Saying everything
That lights up my heart

I am chasing this leaf
This leaf in the wind
And it turns
And it bends
But it never gives in
I am chasing this light
This light that shines bright
And it sparkles
And it flickers
But it never goes out
I am chising this boy
This boy in my world
And he laughs
And he flirts
But he never tells all
I am chasing this image
This image of me
And it's there
And it's real
But it never is me

Having the guts to say
That I deserve better
Someone who loves me
And can say it aloud
Someone to look me in
The eye and not see
A dumb girl
But someone they want
To be with
Having the guts to say
I can do so much better
Having the guts to
Actually do it too.

I let you tease
I let you taunt
Just so I can hear
Your words
Pierce right
Through my heart
It is easy to laugh
When I want to cry
I've pretended for
So long
It's no problem to
Give in
And let you play
Around with me
Because your words
Sound so sweet
And taste so sour
I can't imagine letting
It go
What would I do
If I didn't have you?

Procrastinate
Loudly the sky
Screams
Procrastinate
Loudly the phone
Screams
Procrastinate
Loudly the blank pages
Scream
Procrastinate
Loudly I
Scream

A clear bottle
Holds everything
The air we breathe
The life we lead
The lessons we learn
The memories we make
The words we say
The people we love
The people we've loved
Glistening with all the knowledge
In the sun
Clear to see right through

Last moments
Last thoughts
Last flashes
Of what you
Almost took
Of what you
Let go
Of what you
Didn't catch
How sad
No how woeful
That you
Gained so much
And lost it
In the flip
Of a car

I mean it
When I
Say it
When I
Scream it
When I
Say nothing
At all
How it hurts
To think
How it hurts
To not
I mean it
When I
Say Stop
It

I want to write
It on the walls
Clear the
Sky of all
The dust
We left in
Our hearts
Hold the sun
In my eyes
Without burning
Your face from
My mind
Listen the to wind
Call your name
To my empty
Soul
If you're out there
Fly to me in the
Pollen that grows
Flowers
Spell my name
In the field
Of my dreams
Let it ring
Like the song of
Rain hitting
The street at night
Let it cover me
Like the fresh sheets
Of snow
I want to scream your
Name
I need to know where you
Are

Flick the
Switch
Watch them
Gather
Like flies
To the light
Hold them
Responsible
For clicking
And fliping
And tuning
In
Victims
Murderers
All contribute
To this marvel
To this modern
Marvel

Chasing
Too much at once
Chasing
Shadows that
Stain the walls
Chasing
The wind that
Screams at us all
Chasing
The stars in hopes
I catch one
Chasing
Feelings I don't
Feel anymore
Chasing
For something
Real

Got it on time
Got it on my
Way to a
Land where
You don't
Hold keys
To my heart's
Doors
You open each
Door peeking
And deserting
To the next
Thinking I'll
Kneel to you
I got it this
Time, you
Open doors
When I'm blind
But as soon as
I open my eyes you're
Gone

Talk to your
Whores, make
Them feel special
Let them see
You care about
Their safety
Talk to your
Friends and
Hands out
Those girls
Liked colored
Condoms
Buckets full
And you tell
Me you care

Did it take
You long to
Figure out
That we
Shouldn't
be friends?

Damn the letter
C
My name
Starts with it
And so does
Yours!

I hold it dear
I hold it close
This pieces of
Plastic
That connects
Me to you

Let it come
With chance
And clarity
Let it wash
With love
And alcohol
Let it sting
With percision
And laughter

Help you hold
The life line
You make the heart
Beat and pulse
Send that charge
Because I think
My heart has
Stopped

What the trees see
As they sway
Violently
With the wind
What dirty steps
Try to paint
You can't
See
In moments
Displayed in
Plain view
You choose
To ignore

Like a child
You play with
My heart strings
Like a guitar out
Of tune
Holding me incorrectly
Making notes never
Heard before
Play me
Play me right

So crazy to live in a lie
A lie you built
So we wouldn't get close
A lie so we wouldn't
Become what we could
The lie that kept you
Haunting me

Time warps
Minds
Your eyes
Once so clear
Now covered in
Old film
Your skin
Once so smooth
Now made of a
Life map
Your hands
Once so steady
Now shake
With doubt
Time warps
Minds
and yours

Wonder how
The stars shine
So bright
Wonder how
The sky looks
Just like water
Wonder what
Happened between
You and her!

Yesterday was easy
It's in the past
Today's harder
Conscience decisions
Lead to the next
Tomorrow's a gift
We are blind to
What lays ahead

If my heart didn't beat so fast
For you
If my mind didn't remember
Your charm
If my ears didn't remember
Your laugh
If my eyes didn't remember
Your face
If I had learned things weren't
Meant to be
If my pulse didn't jump
At the sound of your name
If I had a grip of my
Emotions
If I knew how to
Just be friends
Then maybe you
Wouldn't mean
So much to me

Eyes that sting so
Fresh
Does it burn
My dear
As bad as
You burnt
Mine

Friendship with
You means so
Many things
That don't
Fit in our
Hands
We force
and break
Pieces to
Fit together
Do I try
to hard?
Do you
Not try
At all?
Are we
not meant
To fit
Dose friendship
Calsh with
Stronger feelings

All I keep
Thinking
About is how
You've broken
Through the
Ice again
How you
Catch me
Off my
Feet, sweep
Me away
With few
Words
All I can
See is you
and me

Blissfully
I stare
Out of focus
This stage of
Non-exsistence
And awe
Makes me feel
Invisible to those
Who care to
Stare out of focus
And so time continues
Without you and you
Wonder why I don't
Speak up and you
Wonder why you don't
Take charge so we
Tip toe and dance
To a song called
Why

Change my pace
Change my feelings
For you
Change my name
In hopes you
Lose me
Change my scene
Fresh rain
Instead of
Heated pavement
Change my face
Hoping I do
Better with it

Luck chases
Hoping to catch
What it lost

Cherry red
Faces said
That it was
Time to get
Going
Shuffle to
The Shuttle
Let the lights
Dim
Starry nights
Take over
As we
Settle in
Seats to big
Carrying
Us to far
Away places
With ordinary
names
Floating high above
The ground makes
Them nervous
But I just laugh
And float higher

You take
My hand
But it
Feels like
My heart
I tell
Myself
We're
Just friends
But I can't
Stop myself
From feeling
This way
When you
Speak it's
More than
Words to
Me

Tickle my heart
Make my eyes
Regret reading
And seeking your
Face

What was it that made you
Stay
What was it that made you
Want me
What was it that made you
Love me
What was it that made you
Leave me
What was it that made you
Forget me

Take my
Time to
Get you
Off my
Mind
On repeat
I can't
Click off
Gotta let
It run
Its course
Let time
Wear you
Down

What is beauty
The size of a nose
Mountanious or
A flat valley
Eyes of water
Or honey
What is it that
Makes us search
For such qualities
In our genes
Or our hearts
Beauty is something
That awes you
Not what has
Been written
In stone

In all choas
There is truth
Tears clear the
Dirt stains
And laughter
Makes the
Whole world
Go round

Flowing water
Changes the path
Breaks through the
Concrete walls

I fall on my own
Into your hole
What I can't see
Is your derisive
Smile, eyes
Hear your laugh
Echo
I echo
My heart beats
As I slip into
What never
Let me go

Damn you
Damn your
Smile
Damn your
Eyes
Damn your
Words
That catch
An innocent
Girl off
Her feet
Damn you
Damn my
Heart

Sleep is all I ask
Of you
Love is all I want
From you
I hold you hoping
You will return
The favor
As I wait
You run
Free
Like a caged
Bird I wait
For my master
To unlock
The door
The keys hung
Right infront
Of me
I sing hoping
I charm as
Easily as you
Do
But my song
Goes unheard
All I ask
Is that you
Let me go

Fools look out
The window
And say
"It's not
Raining very hard"
Fools speak
When everyone is
Not listening
Fools fall in
Love with
Those who'll
Never love them
Back
Fools like me
Think that
Time is on their
Side
When the hourglass
Is full

Look
Look
See
See
Hear
Hear
Feel
Feel
The
Silence
You
Left
How
Loud
You
Left
It
On
Now
I
Can't
Sleep
Listening
To
The
Silence
You
Left

Situations
Running wild
Every outlook
Crazy as the next
Thinking
Dreaming
Book endings
How silly
Of me to think
Life ends with
Happily Ever After

I watch
As I laugh
As I smile
At your message
Careful
Don't fall in to deep
You can't swim well
Remember those times
You almost drowned
No one there to save you
Watch where you swim
Silly girl
You can't swim in
His ocean

In lights
That shined so bright
Getting lost in the flashes
The crashes that happen
All around
Wind so powerful
You don't know if your walking
Or getting pushed along
The snow that was once
So white
Is now so black
Lining up with the night
Sky
Starless
So many buildings out shine them
Holding on to something that
Doesn't exist
Oh those flashes
Burn old memories of
What was once so real

Lifting the words from
The page
My eyes wander
Along the map
Of my heart
I so nicely
Drew up
For the world to read
Did you find your place?

If I pretend like
You don't feel the same
Way
If I pretend that our
Conversations
Are boring
And pointless
Will it all change
In my mind
If I ignore your jokes
If I stop hearing your
Laugh in my head
Will it all disapper
Could I pretend like
This isn't real?

Blood
Shouldn't rush
through
Anyone that fast
But you got me pumping
Like a race car
And it's hard to control
It
Because I know I shouldn't
Feel this way
Not for you
But you make it boil
Like no one else

I can't keep
Waiting for dreams
To appear out of
Fairytale books
But I just can't put
It down
And we move
We breathe
We die a little
Everyday
Wasting away
I want to know
If this is real
If this is what
You try to say
To me
Say it
Outloud
Let me hear the breathes
Inbetween
Let me feel your hands on me
Holding me as your words
Confirm my dreams
Or just tell me to stop waiting

I know this can't be it
I feel so far
And close
to you
But I never thought
I would get stuck
I wish I could run
But you've got me
Chained to your eyes
And though I cut right
Through
I put them back on again
Can I beat what seems
So impossible
Cause I know I can
Move without you being there
If only I tried
I don't know if friends
Should feel this way
Should I feel this
For you

I love you
But I shouldn't
I think of you
When I should
Listen to the teacher
I want to leave you
In the past
But I keep getting sidetracked
By your comments
Your life that breathes
Right through my computer
And sometimes I feel like
I can't breath
The blood rushes right
From my legs
To my heart
Hoping that you will
Take me in your arms
Or at least your eyes
Something to tell me
You feel the same
Am I playing up
What you said
Are you taking me
On a ride
Hoping I never get off
I am hoping
What about you?

Are you the one?
Is that why I can't forget you
Am I suppose to?
Because everytime we part
Like magnets we are pulled
Together again
Never getting far
If you're the one
Then that would explain
Why we persist
Why fate brings
Us toward eachother
If it is so then what do
We do?
Chasing you
Chasing me
Should we just wait and sit
Or take hold of our hands?
Are you the one to hold
My hands?

Clocks that
Make faces
They laugh
Tick Tocking
At my patience
That is running
Thin
Waiting for you
Can be torture
But their
Sneering
Won't steer me
Away from you

Florescent Rain
Falls on the heads
Of oblivious students
As they write down
Notes that never
End from the
Board