Not a Victory Dream

I hear my heart
It sounds like a beat
That runs along
Your mind
As you lay there
At night
Hoping she comes
In your dreams
Visiting you
Where she can
Run and never
Be caught

Do you hear
My heart beat
Trying to bring you
Back from
The dream
That always
Wakes you
When it turns into
A nightmare

I hear my heart beat
The sound goes
To you falling
Cutting through
The thick gravity
That stopped you
From catching her
As she jumped

The sound of pain
Echoed through
and my heart beat
Woke me
As you laid there
Hoping you could
Sleep through
The sound of losing

Do you hear my heart
Its calling to you
To let her jump
As you wake to find me

A flickering memory

Remember the promises
You never made

Remember the lies
You never told

Remember the smiles
You never bore

Remember the tears
You never shed

Remember the seconds
You never saw

Remember the feelings
You never remorsed

Remember my worries
You tried to keep

Remember my skin
You once touched

Remember the songs
You once heard

Remember me
You once loved

Remember you
The you  you once were

Remember the days
You felt were too long

Remember the nights
You knew ended too soon

Remember the love
Remember

The Bridge I Cross and The Tolls you Take

Don't lie
Don't pretend
That those messages
Are sent as a friend
Because from afar
It looks like you are
Interested in more
Than just white lies

Don't lie
Don't lead me in
Saying you want nothing
Than to be good friends
Because fiction never turns
Out well for the lover
With distant reflections
Of non-corresponding affections

Don't lie
Don't send me away
When you say that
Getting to know me
Is so imparative
And yet you linger and stay
Just far enough to keep
Your eyes on the watch

Don't lie
Don't patrionize
The rising feeling inside
That you are interested
In more ways than one
And instead of letting me know
You run around vague phrases
For fun

The Sound of Flesh Shattering

It's all my fault
This breaking
Cracking
Tearing feeling
In my heart

Your heart hurts
My head bangs
Against the walls
We put up
To keep out
The reality here now

It was a fall
A jump of fate
Falling through
Silver linings
Sown by you
Ripped out by me

It's all my fault
This splinting
Slashing
Slicing feeling
In my heart

Your heart's bare
Empty and despaired
Mine is sold
Never knowing
Where it wants to go

It's all my fault
This dark corner
I put you in
Thinking I could
Keep you

Your heart's pure
And I stained it well
Thinking that life
Would have a spell
To un-curse you now

It's all my fault
And I hope your heart
Never stops
Despite the whole
I put in it 
 

One Layer at a Time

Underneath that tiny lair of skin
That you love to hold yourself in
So warm and safe
Never too noisy or too perilous
Where you tuck in
When the world is windy
And unpredictable
You wish life was more
Like the endings
Where things are right
In the end
Hiding underneath the
Only armor you were ever given
It's still fragile
But it will do
Because acting is a guise
We can all use at some time
Maybe more than others
But then how would we know
When falsehood is a common good
We like to abuse
And it didn't cost a thing
Not even a penny
So the freedom we mistook
Buries us deeper
Into the devices
We create to see clearer
And the clearer it is
The more we know
And the more we know
The less we see
Seeing the scrapers
Peeling away at the reality
We once made
Hoping we forget
And continue to bury
Our heads
And if we don't comply
Well then there are other ways
To make us run and hide
Into layers of skin
Some deep
But more than not
Too thin to keep

A Colorful Wind

Hearts change

And baby the wind was always

Shifty on days we spent

Apart

Breaking hearts is one thing

But letting go hurts more than

Shattering flesh

The image I painted

Suddenly ran down the canvas

Hearts change

And baby the wind never stays

Still in one place for us

Never

Chasing dreams that smeared

Across the miles that separate

Us from state to state

It was picked up and carried

To a place that no longer exists

Hearts change

And baby the rain soaked it

Into the ground along the

Desert sand

Shaking off my back

Chills from when I lost the feeling

My heart knew it

But my mind took time

To close the gap

Hearts change

And baby the time grew

Into something wonderful

And got carried away in the wind