A most true but relecutant confession

It's insane how I feel
When your presence
Consumes my halls
Your beautiful on the
Inside and the out
It's too hard to comprehend
I think I just dropped my
Breath and it floated
Right on by but I
Can't focus in
Because now I am
Living right here and now
And I'm stunned by all
The emotions aroused
In seconds by just looking
At you
And letting you embrace
The very small
And almost invisible me
That hid behind curtains
And veils
To keep up the illusion
Of an omnipotent
Young woman
Who can't seem to give
Herself a break
And all I want is to be
The best that I can be
Not realizing the flaws
I blindly observe
Are the unique qualities
Attributed to
Who I am and
How I will come to be
The older version
Of my youth that fumbled
To find her way
And so I give you this rare gift
Of an unfiltered me
That sometimes is too much

But that is me
And just like I have said
Your presence awakens me

A Forgotten Rambling

I run and hide
Becoming my worst enemy
Thinking up things that I shouldn't be
As I sit and wonder
And left to ponder
About all the lies
I told you
Trying to evoke
some sort of
a spark inside you
Then I came to realize
I was not right for you
So I said good bye 
Packed up my things
And fled from
Your embrace
Your gated doorway
Where you kept me
For too long
Promising me that
One day
I'd be inside
Lighting every room
And looking out your
Window as the sun comes
Up
But it won't
Not in such a dark place
Like your soul

An Ego Ablaze

A raging fire
Of pure emotion
Fuels every muscle
Giving power to the
Ego

How it yearns to be
Acknowledged
Not forgotten
But solidified
In the reality it
Finds itself in

Lurking around
Trying to figure it out
Letting others come close

Testing to see
If it will get hurt

A raging fire
Of raw emotion
Charges every fiber
That is contained in the
Ego

How it craves to be
Heard
Not ignored
But understood
In this semblance
We are all in

Wondering if
Ideas it has
Are worth sharing

Or if they should kept
To itself

A raging fire
Of pure emotion
Fills every nerve
To the brim for the
Ego

How it runs on
Adrenalin
Sustaining momentum
To reach the end
In hopes its the first
To win

Pondering if
The rat race
Unfolding
Is just a distraction
From what is happening
With the Ego as a whole