I detach so easily
From this reality
My mind's far off
And my bodies
Asleep
That now I feel
So lost
From too much
Distance of interest
That my whole worlds
Off in the delusion
Of normalcy

And they say
It can be done
That life is salvageable
If you just have
Some fun
But me
I see the rotting truth
That things stay tainted
Even after a wash

And maybe death is close
So close I can taste it
Now
Now with my wit
My wisdom and sorrow
I can pass on somberly
And not worry about tomorrow

Yes my worries
My pains and sufferings
They are nothing in light
Of my gifts and blessings
But even those seem so
Broken and old
That my heart cannot settle
For them anymore

And who am I hurting
If I give in to this
Demon that's following
Only I know the truth
And that's a lot of
Cross bearing
Do I seize this curse
And turn it into a
Cure that saves me
From eternal burning

And thus I ask myself
Where have I gone
To wander so far
And see no return
How lost am I if
There's no end in
Sight
What's to become
Of this reality
I set forth to
In plight.