In my hands
I never had
I almost did
But I let go
Afraid of
What it was
Always running
Never looking
At what I had
All along
Why did I
Give it all
Away
So that I
Could always
Say I've never
Known
Blame it on
Fate
And not my
Own
How did I
Let myself
Live without
Ever living
I must
I will
Push through
All my bull shit
Excuses
Because nothing
Hurts more
Than never
Knowing
How it could
Have been