With a Heavy Lock

Why did I close my eyes
To the wonderful surprise
I never treated right

I am letting go
Of that beautiful
Someone
I don't deserve

Why did I shut my mouth
When the words could flow
Out smoothly to greet you

I am letting go
Of that mess I
Created
On my own

Why did I keep the door
Locked up tight
Hiding inside at night

I am letting go
Of the stains I try
So hard to scrub
Off the bedroom floor

Why do I pretend to
Sleep soundly
In such an empty bed

I am letting go
Of warm bodies
Keeping my cold
Heart warm